whaddup(:

2010-06-02T00:09:00.000-07:00

<3>

hey ho.hey ho.

currently staying over at mama ida's place (:

awesommeeeeeeeee (:

own room.aircon 24/7.ps3.SETTLE.

today getting my pay (:

awesome or what.

as what's more now GSS is on !

coolios eh? wooooooooooooooooooooo!

forever 21, hre i come uh.

going to 313,forever 21. every level imma get clothes baybeh.

and just so you know.im single ):

but ah,going with the flow (:

2010-05-23T23:23:00.000-07:00

(:

hi.
hvn't been blogging cos apparently i do not hve access to internet hre in JW.
but mum bought this broadband thingy so hre i am,blogging once again.
hvn't been in control of the things i do.
but one thing is,i long to go to school,i know it's weird tht i badly wanna go to school but really,if you are in my shoes you would to.

im currently working at jln bukit merah,i go through nuh's medical records.
it sounds easy but really,it's tiring.my back hurts like crazy.
and besides the pay is not enough for me,well now it's not just me,i hve mum to support.you see this is life.sometimes 'HE' can be so unfair.but wht am i to do? 'HE' chooses my path of life.which right now the path 'HE's leading me to sucks, big time.but gyeah,it's a test. ):

boyfriend,sigh.
we're really going through a hard time.refuses to see mum,when aidil already has.which is supposed to be the other way round.but it doesn't really matter does it?he doesn't seem to care at all,but i close one eye.fuck.fuck.
):

home.double sigh.
they're depending on me for expenses when my pay can barely support me.
WTF LAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAR.

when will it be my turn to feel what exactly it is to be HAPPY.
'HE's busy mending the life of others,maybe he left my case in a really ulu place and he totally forgot tht i really need him right now.
argh.

NOBODY'S TALKING COS TALKING JUST TURNS INTO SCREAMING!
sometimes you mean nothing to the person who means everything to you.

2010-02-19T05:46:00.000-08:00

IM GOING BALI YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAW. (:

cool right?i know.im hell excited (: will update ya'll.
holla and ouuuuuut (:

2010-01-18T21:23:00.000-08:00

I MISS GRANDMA IN JURONG WEST (:

so anyways,i've been counting and yet thr's still anthr
3 mths till momma comes back (:
really,i can't wait.
anyways.i took out my dreads and now imma rebond my hair.
and imma do a streak of blonde.
*try imagining*
i'll be doing tht on thursday i guess.

well.i hvn't really been going out these few days.
hve been staying home,and tht kinda explains the reason why im gaining those pounds ):
i,promise to jog three times a week in order to be in shape.
well,at least i hope i'll really do it.
(:

i think imma visit granny this friday perhaps?
gyeah.
and i'll bring her a gift (:

x0x0 (: ykily.

2010-01-06T21:46:00.000-08:00

tell me wht is it.

hello mofo's.
i'll be stuck in this torture chamber for another 3 mths?
but let's look on the bright side,imma have my momma by my side real soon.
(:
im just minding my own business and will not interfere in someone else's issues.
gyeah.

well,
aidil's in camp so gyeah,he's my best friend if you don't know.
and imma stick to it tht way.
cos i don't wanna lose him as a friend.

and you, don't gimme''it's my first time'' as an excuse.
all im asking for is a lil wee bit of happiness.
you're happy while i hve to fake it.

(:
im out yaw.

2010-01-06T06:47:00.000-08:00

WHAT IS LOVE.

if i give you my 100 percent,wld i get 100 percent back in return?
ykily.

open yr heart,open yr ,mind,open yr eyes to my needs (:

2010-01-02T23:06:00.000-08:00

hello world.

finally,im away from the shitass crap.

im currently over at mama ida's,taking some time off the bitch world.

being hre sorta brings a smile to my face.

i don't hve to fake it,just comes naturally.(:

and momma's coming back in 3 mths time.

and soon it'll be 2 then 1 and then omg,she's finally hre.

you have no idea how fucking bad i wanna run to her and squeeze her.

really,you don't.

i've been shopping online cos lately i've been a lil anti-social.

yeah,you can say tht.

been cooping myself at home.

even i was at home during countdown.

my godma asked'' how come you're not out partying?''

all i answered was,''err,i guess im just not in the festive mood?''

hahhaha.funny right?TASH STAYING HOME WHEN SHE'S SUPPOSED TO BE OUT PARTYING.

got a few invites hre and thr,and i rejected all.

gosh.wht's got into me?i really don't knw.

i ordered pastry shoes online,i know,not many hve heard of the brand.

but it's really dope.

i wanted to get supra's buuuuuut, it's second hand and it looks fucked up.

and my shoes are alrdy hre!

it's awesome i swear.

and recently i think i've been touched by an angel above.

and alot of ppl hve been telling me i lost weight,like finally(:

weee im so proud.*taps myself.

and imma still work on it,i wanna be just like KALI HAWK.

awwww.

she's one hell of a hottie.

i guess i just hve to be REALLY REALLY patient,like seriously.

patience & sincere; tht is islam (:

2009-12-26T18:26:00.001-08:00

I HATE MY DAD,YES.I SOOOO FREAKING HATE HIM.

2009-12-09T21:35:00.000-08:00

TASH KALI ROSTOV (:

*ohh.sounds so seductive.wakakaka.im like wrecking my brains cos my brother's party is costly.
buuuuuut.
what he wants ,he gets.i know you know can already.
he's one lucky boy.
two parties.
divorced parents.
oh and it's like 13 hours into his b'day and my dad hasn't said a word to him.
kinda alrdy predicted that.
let's just put that aside aye.
imma let my brahh'' have a rolling good time (:
you ready baby brother? (:

2009-12-06T02:53:00.000-08:00

alohaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.
(:

yes,i know.i hvn't been updating.
but wht's thr to update.it's same old same old.
(:
i swear i can't wait for me momma to come back,cos i can't stand anthr day.
fuck.fuck.fuck.
grrrr.
and hvn't you heard?
im getting married next year.HAHAHHA.nah,im just kidding.
you fucking nuts?
im only SEVENTEEN for gods sake.
and i'll be driving next year.wooooooooohoooooo.
(:
see you on the road sucka's.

2009-11-21T21:35:00.001-08:00

hello there (:

eeeeeeyaaaaaaaaaaaaar.
well,life's pretty much the same.
work work work and work.but im liking this job cos i nvr run out of money.
great eh?
and my brahhhhhhhhhhh's birthday is coming.
imma make a really special party for him,cos momma ain't around. ):
but it's okay,im sure sissy and i would ensure he has a great time (:
so gyeah.
imma be saving up for his party.
my stuff can wait (:
though im saying it with a heavy heart,still i meant it (:
so gyeah.will update ya'll soon.

(:
imma roll.
cos i've got nth else to blab about.
(:

2009-11-17T04:23:00.000-08:00

IM LOVIN'' MY DREADLOCKS.

OMG.IM FINALLY BLOGGING.

Been super busy lately.
you know,all work and no play.until yesterday tht is.
HAHAHAAHA.
attended the 'M' party held at zirca on the 16th.
FUN.FUN.FUN(:
i definitely rocked the cage thr.
woots''woots''
arep,khai,hady,cha & erm gyeah afiq was thr.
was with the ''dreadlocks gang''.
all five had dreads.supa dupa fetch.
but afiq didn't enter.no money i guess.and he still owes me.fuck.

it's been more than two mths and he ain't paying me.bitch.
not even a single cent.
and now they're telling me he has a new girlfriend and im like,
you can't even support yrself yet you wanna hve a girlfriend?
PFFFFFT.
ah.fuck it.you wanna play games with me?
wait till me momma comes back and you're sooooooo gonna get it. (:
im all smiles baby.
well,look out for updates.
and im really sorry for not updating.eeeeek.

holla if you need me.
oh,and im selling few pieces of clothes.
will elaborate on tht.
(:
remember the name.remember the face. (:

2009-10-06T23:01:00.000-07:00

JUST LIVE YR LIFE (:

holla.holla.atchu.girl.

luuur.well,imma do things my way now and im like counting down till me momma comes back.woots woots(: it's like 4 more mths till she steps in s'pore.

im like hell excited. im like seeing supra's,hummer jeeps, new clothes,new blings,new hoodie's and a heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeell load of stuffs (:

im pretty sure.

and soon a NEW LIFE (:

so im just chillin at the moment.

I SWEAR I CAN'T WAIT (:

my imaginations are alrdy running wild.

once my mum comes back,those who alrdy hve ruined me, prepare to get yr life ruined real bad.cos my mum's fiesty (: hahahhahahaha. she's a bigger bitch than i am.i guess i learnt it from her. duh *

should i get my hair done or should i get myself a new phone?

im thinking phone (:

2009-10-02T10:14:00.000-07:00

TRY THIS (:

spell my name backwards. NATASHA * AHSATAN. i knw lame.oh well,im like super bored uh.

I'm not going through the motions Waiting and hoping you call me You might have had me open, But I must be going because I got life to do I know I'm usually hanging on I used to hate to see you gone But this time its different I don't even feel the distance

(:
so live yr life ,aye,aye,ayeeeeeeee (:

2009-09-21T23:56:00.000-07:00

SELAMAT HARI RAYA YAW (:

2009-08-11T23:37:00.000-07:00

(: when you think im bold.too bold in fact.

hello.yes.i know.havn't been updating.

well maybe because nth much happened?

stayed over at tash's in bedok while lily was away.

hung out hre and thr.y'know.i was supposed to go bck on monday,

but i ended up staying for anothr night and went bck the nxt afternoon.

trained bck hre in lakeside from bedok,mind you.grrrr.

and no ipod.

so now im bck hre and working with the family business in teban.

easy money actually.

i plan to fast one whole full mth if my sambal belacan(period)isn't due.

gyeah.im such an angel.okay,smebody shoot me now.

idk why but i just really hve this great feeling to fast.

weird.

and like now i hve to save up for norfi's,ash and my own baju kurung.

norfi's schooling so i doubt she has money to spare.

looks like i hve to fork out again just like last year ):

but tht's really fine by me cos we wld wear the same colours.

tht makes me feel so special.

how i love tht we wld agree on a colour.

AGREE ON.

i kinda miss my siblings since we don't live under one roof.

SISTER:bt batok. ASH:bedok.

wth right?i know.

my brother's all grown up now.

he's becoming hotter and taller.

i miss him already.

some of you may think im bullshitting right now,

but THIS FEELING ONLY COMES ONCE A YEAR.

without my mum,evrything just seems to be really really hard.

wht to do.

save bitch save!

im thinking green or black this year...well.i hvn't ask my sister.

ASH has no say in this.haha.

pistol bang bang betul.

2009-07-25T05:35:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO LILY & TASH ROSTOV (:

haha. whaddup dawg.damn.im really really supadupa lazy to update.but gyeah.oh ya.watch the video (: thanks for all those who wished me.and the presents (:

2009-07-17T21:25:00.000-07:00

alohaaaaaa(:

16/07/09

well.

i went to watch harry potter with sister and cousins.

norfi,nurul ain,nurul atiqah and amirul.

amirul fetched me at lakeside.

we reached there like half an hour late but we didn't miss much,i think.

DUMBLEDORE died.fuck.

and norfi,thanks for whacking me right in the chest.

it wasn't even a horror movie.
i'll upload pictures soon uh.
NO CARD READER!
grr.

18/07/09

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LILY!

me and dino alfian planned this really last min surprise.

the night before after she head to bed,

we sorta did our own version of a barney cake.

she wanted a barney cake but sice we didn't hve cash on us we just made it out of paper.

HAHA.

and we left a note for her to to go see it at the balcony.

which she did.

i was asleep when she saw it cos she left for training in the morning.

so gyeah bitch.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY.

(:

*can't wait for mine!

have you bought my present?

or made something out of paper?

HAHA.

(:

2009-07-05T01:14:00.000-07:00

top pikcha'' :my cousin's son,silat.he's so fucking charming. (:

ATTENDED A WEDDING CEREMONY.

well.today woke up early.

grandmama wants me to go for the wedding ceremony.

which i did lur.

went there and bla bla bla bla.

reached home at like 3 plus?

well.lets the pictures do the talking lar.

lazy lazy lazy.

now it's like only 4.57pm.

am waiting for papi to fetch me and bay to tb!

now i feel the excitement.

i can't wait for tonight's clubbing event.

am still thinking what to wear.

zara or topshop?

i think zara.

sheeesh.don't know la.see how.

holla back aye (:

2009-07-04T09:46:00.000-07:00

hello.

well.

today's was hayden's day.

a ritual for him to cut his hair.

went there ate and bla bla bla bla.

see that pictures?

well.that's how much fun i was having.

during the prayers,me and lily were msging one another.

i mean we were sitting like side by side.

lily:im sleepy(during the prayers uh,bear in mind)

tash:well,im hungry.

lily:kau lagi macam sial.aku seriously ngantuk.

(you much more worse.im seriously sleepy)

tash:after this we eat okay.

while the fellow was praying,he mentioned hayden's full name.

which was hayden bin abbas.and so lily text again.

lily:is it just me or he said the name wrongly?Hayden bin abbas.bin?!?!

tash:of course it's bin la.it's a guy what.

(looking at her dumbfounded)

lily:all this while i thought hayden's a girl.

i gave that WHATHEFUCKYOUTHINKING look.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

everyone else were praying while we were msging.whats more we were

so close to one another.side by side.i repeat eh,i repeat,SIDE BY SIDE.

i swear i was trying so hard to hold back my laughter.

then i stayed home.

bay went out uh.

and his ex babygirl text him.

then trouble it is.

fought fought fought.

i swear i just shut the fuck up cos if i were to be really pissed,

i would have called her.

lucky for her i was darn tired.

and bay sorta hinted me not to get involved.

so i stayed off limits lor.

well.tmr clubbing uh.

i update soon uh.

papi fetching me and bay to telok blangah house then chill then we head there.

bay wanna wear small and i gave him the ''it's not funny'' attitude.

so gyeah.

well.the last one was zouk.which was like one or two months ago.

clubbing?

im like 50,50 excited.

idky.

holla back aye.

2009-07-03T12:00:00.000-07:00

LOOK HOW RETARDED SHE CAN BE.

IM NO DIFFERENT,BUT STILL I THINK SHE'S WORSE.HAHA

HOLLA AT CHA BOYYYYY.

hello.today went out with kak ida and kids.

kecoh kecoh(:

ate at jurong point bla bla bla bla.

oh.me and lily rode on the tiny rides along with haziq and yaya.

quite fun actually.

went home,slack slack slack.

yaar.

that's about it uh.

how boring i know.

holla back aye.

*short post,a really really short one.

2009-06-04T07:09:00.000-07:00

YOU ARE ONE HELL OF A BITCH!

yes.

you must be wondering why am i up so early just to blog.

i had enough.i repeat eh,i repeat, I HAD ENOUGH.

i had enough of your crap la bitch.

nbcb.

I CANNOT STAND THE PEOPLE AROUND ME.

in life you have happiness and sorrows.

mine is clearly a fucked up one.THANKS EH.

this is what you want right?YOU GOT IT BITCH!YOU GOT IT.

you crossed the fucking line.

i will hold grugdes against you.you give me shit,i give you hell.

when it comes to being bad,IT'S ALL ME!

fuck you la.

maybe i tried TOO hard.motherfucker.nbcb.knn.

THIS IS ALL MY MUM'S FAULT.

LEAVE ME IN THIS SITUATION.

LEAVE ME IN THIS STUPID SHIT SITUATION.

IM SO FUCKING PISSED RIGHT NOW,I CAN BEAT THE FUCK OUT OF SOMEONE.

I SWEAR I DON'T KNOW HOW TO HANDLE THIS.

IM JUST MERELY A TEENAGER,DON'T BE SO HARSH ON ME.

I BEG YOU,JUST LEAVE ME ALONE.

IF I WERE TO FOLLOW MY HEART UH,

NO ONE,i repeat eh,i repeat,NO ONE WILL EVER HEAR FROM ME

I FEEL LIKE SMASHING YOUR KUKUNENE FACE.

*im sorry to those who thinks this post is harsh and aggressive.

but i really got to let it out.

2009-06-02T01:24:00.000-07:00

I WANT THIS REAL BAD(:

2009-05-29T08:38:00.000-07:00

holla.holla.

went out with bff.HAHA.

hell funny uh.we were constantly taking pictures.lazy elaborate uh.

well,let the pictures do the talking aye.

2009-01-03T16:12:00.000-08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR MOTHERFUCKA'S(:

haha.had a blast during countdown.
with lily and friends and gang.
weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

sooooo many things happen.
and im gonna be having my portfolio on the 16 of jan.
so i'll upload it once i got it done.
if you got ugly comments keep it to yourself!i don't need them okay?
(:

with bf.wait i mean ex boyfriend.
yes.im no longer with ian.
i don't really wanna spill my thoughts here cos he reads my blog.
but yea.
aiya.
a new year,a new start?
well,maybe.just maybe.
well,it's been nice knowing you,i mean the friendster thing and all.
though i don't actually date guys online.
thanks for the journey?
fcuk.what am i saying?HAHA.
(:

AND TO COUSINS.

WE FIGHT WE BREAK UP,WE KISS WE MAKE UP.

(:

CAN'T WAIT FOR MY PORTFOLIO!
(:

afiq,wanna lean on me say laar.(: hahahahaha.

2008-12-20T23:35:00.000-08:00

hola.at cha.TASH.LILY.MY SICK BITCHES.

kissy kissy muack muack.

SICKO.MY SICK BITCH and iloveher.

HELLO(:

okay.so i went out today.
haha.i went to esplanade with my cousins and her other cousins along with my aunt and unc.
okay im talking about my nepalese cousins.so ya.
super fun la.
and then now im just slacking.
well.i will be having dinner with bf's family on christmas eve.
(:
esplanade was like dang.we went there to watch this performance.
and my uncle was like so happening lur.
awesome.
been really close to cousins and surprisingly,im the oldest among them ,
but im the most immature one.
they know more stuff than i do!
haha.
that's about it folks.
im like chatting with LEON right now.
HAHA.he knows me so fucking well.
and damn that fucktard.

you can run but you can't hide fucktard.
pfft for your fuck sweet talks.
you're so full of S!

(:

2008-12-02T23:25:00.001-08:00

PROM WAS A BLAST!

HOLY!@#$%$#&*$%&*$#.

omg.like prom was so fucking worth it lur!
i mean i came with really low hopes of having fun due to some reasons.
but when i saw my peers they were kinda driving me wild.
am so fucking glad i didn't missed it(:

i hung out with dylan,of all people but he turned out to be a really nice guy.
and of course when they turned on the song who dance?ME.like duh*
everyone knows i so totally love dancing.
it was really a blast lur.
i danced with BAIHAQIE! MARCUS LEONG!AFIQ!HAHAHAHAHA.
those were my close peers and we were dancing like there was no tmr.
FUCK.it was so fcuking awesome.

then after that went drinking.
what's a party when you don't get high?
HAHA.
but as always i was to first to puke.
i got high but after a while i was fine.
haha.then dave and jorelle kinda puked on themselves.
like ewwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww.
but it was so fcuking funny.
without them acting like that,i wouldn't be having the time of my life.
I SWEAR.